I've had it for three weeks, and this might not seem long, but I try to write daily. I spend time working on Rose on Fire even though I haven't actually updated it for a while. I still have to write the vast majority of Senate of Blood and edit what I have written. I know I updated Rose in Ice but... that was an old piece. To Love, From Love I actually wrote last year, but the other short stories in Ice are no older than a month or two.
I still have ideas, and I still get fresh ideas. When listening to music, or conversation, or looking at art I still get an image in my mind. When I write, I get a mental picture and work a narrative out of it. For a while now, I've not been able to get that narrative. It bugs me.
I'll write the opening paragraph or so, but I can't seem to get beyond that. I have a huge list of all the things that have inspired me, but I think part of it is self doubt.
Is what I'm writing good enough? Is what I create a high enough quality to share?
Self doubt is not something new to me, but this is the first time I've had someone expecting me to write. You expect me to add to SOB every Sunday, and you expect me to publish a new short story in Ice every week. That is driving me on, rather than holding me back.
I have no idea how to get over this, but I think writing despite of a block is the best way forward. Probably.
See you on Tuesday!
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