I'm making small changes that I hope will become a part of something bigger. I'm slowly but surely reorganising my room so I know where things are, and I know that I use/want everything; I plan to organise my craft stash too, so again I know where everything is; I'm sorting out my wardrobe and shopping a little.
I'm basically doing my absolute best to be organised, and to have nothing in my life I do not want, need, or find to be beautiful. It is a very slow process, and I'm not expecting miracles. I feel that if the things around me are sorted, perhaps the rest of my life will be too. I'm also fully aware that it might not go that way, but at least I will spend a lot less time looking for my things.
Part of me wants to change me too. I know that there are things about me I cannot change, but that does not bother me. I can be confident in my own skin, I just need to find that confidence. I'm going to try out new makeup looks, a few new clothes and styles I haven't tried before, and I might even dye my hair something other than brown-black.
There is no miracle cure. If one thing does not work, I will try another, and another, and another, until something does work. My depression is unlikely to just fade away, but I can try to stop it ruling me.
See you next Tuesday!
E